Are there any stories about abusing your wife, which is satisfying for a while, but ends up in the crematorium when you pursue her?

I have been in an online relationship with my boyfriend for three years, and I have been with him through the most difficult days.

Once in person, lovers become enemies.

Because the person who had been with me for three years was also an accomplice in bullying me.

later.

Song Shiyan brought back everything he had done to me, one by one.

He begged me to forgive him and come back.

But the things in this world are not something that can be repaid with a tit-for-tat.

1

When Song Shiyan and his men cornered me, I was sending messages to the pinned account “Yanyan Baby” on WeChat.

[I have something to do tonight, I’ll play games with you later. ]

The dim street lights cast a light only at the corner.

After the message was sent, I clenched my fist, and when I looked up, I heard a message alert sound.

The next second, through the gap in the crowd, I saw Song Shiyan leaning against the wall, his eyes fixed on the phone. The coldness between his brows melted instantly, and a gentle smile appeared in the corners of his eyes.

He leaned close to the phone’s receiver, his voice low and gentle:

[It’s ok, honey. I just happened to be busy too. Come back to me when you’re done.]

The person in front of him fell silent.

The phone in my hand vibrated. I lowered my eyes and saw a voice message from “Yanyan Baby”.

“You’re lucky.”

“Apologize.”

Song Shiyan put away his phone, and his gaze became cold and ruthless again.

“I’ll let you go when you’re done.”

“Brother Yan?” the woman standing next to him shouted in dissatisfaction.

Song Shiyan ignored her and held a cigarette in his hand. The person next to him wanted to offer him a light, but he didn’t take it.

The person’s eyebrows and eyes overlap with those in previous photos.

Song Shiyan stood at the outermost edge, the light only illuminating half of his face. The light and dark were distinct, yet he still looked extremely handsome.

I was a little dazed.

Half of it is my inkstone.

Half of it is an inkstone from the Song Dynasty.

The strength on his hands suddenly loosened.

I shook my head.

“Okay.” Song Shiyan said in a light tone. He didn’t look at me again, but just exchanged glances with others.

Punches and kicks kept falling on me.

One after another, the places that were touched hurt.

Threats and insults, one by one, entered my ears.

There was also Zhou Yueyue’s triumphant laughter.

I buried my face in my arms.

I don’t know how long it was, but when I opened my eyes again, the figure at the corner had disappeared.

2

I provoked Zhou Yueyue.

She has been hated for a long time. She relies on her gangster boyfriend to act arrogantly in school.

I was queuing for food in the cafeteria on Wednesday.

She suddenly appeared with her sisters, without saying hello, and inserted herself into the line as if no one was around, standing in front of me.

If it were any other time, I might have said a few words to her first.

But I was very hungry that day.

I forgot to eat breakfast in the morning, and I was very hungry during the third class.

Just pushed her.

But I forgot that I am very strong.

This push caused her to fall on her butt.

The sound of Zhou Yueyue landing on the ground was quite loud, and the whole area suddenly became quiet.

All eyes were on us.

She had probably never been treated like this before, and her face turned blood red, like a red balloon that was over-inflated and about to burst.

I was just about to apologize to her when I heard my aunt calling me:

“Girl, what are you eating? Don’t dawdle. There’s a line behind you.”

I was stunned and instantly forgot about Zhou Yueyue who was still on the ground. I told the aunt the names of several dishes.

By the time I finished my meal, she was gone.

I thought about it and felt that she was at fault first, so we wrote off the issue.

3

Just what I think.

Zhou Yueyue obviously didn’t think so.

Otherwise she wouldn’t have asked her boyfriend’s good friend to teach me a lesson.

I won’t be beaten up by my boyfriend and his men.

4

When I returned to the dormitory, my clothes were soaked in dirty water and were dirty and smelly.

The roommate covered his nose and looked surprised: “Ranran, what’s wrong with you?”

“I accidentally fell on the road.”

“Oh.” She breathed a sigh of relief, “Go take a shower.”

I responded and took off the mask on my face, and the phone in my pocket vibrated again.

——【What are you doing, Guaiguai? 】

——【Are you done with your work?】

——【Why are you ignoring me (crying cat head.jpg)】

——【Good boy?】

——【Waiting obediently.jpg】

I didn’t reply, pressed the screen-off button, and went into the bathroom.

5

Song Shiyan and I have been in an online relationship for three years, but we have never met.

When we first met, he called me Lu Ran.

Later, when we became familiar with each other, he called me Ranran.

Later, he confessed to me and called me a good boy.

We have known each other for almost three years.

His grandfather passed away during the process.

During that period, we talked on the phone five times a day. He talked about his grandfather until his voice became hoarse or he started crying.

I was here crying with him, comforting him as I cried.

I know his childhood inside out, listening to him talk about those youthful days that he can never go back to, the only years he misses.

My browser search history is all about: How to best comfort a loved one who has passed away.

He sometimes calls me in the middle of the night.

The city was pitch black at three in the morning. I was awakened by the ringing of the phone in my sleep. I sat up from the bed, looked at the inky night, and cried with him.

Later, Song Shiyan slowly walked out. Time has proved that the best comfort is indeed companionship.

Even though we never met.

I’ll be there when he needs me.

He said, “Good boy, I’m glad you’re here.”

When I received this message, my best friend Shengsheng happened to see it nearby. She sneered:

“I didn’t realize you had so much free time to comfort a total stranger through the screen.”

I stared down at the screen and answered irrelevant questions:

“It’s amazing, isn’t it?”

“The Internet is really advanced.”

Song Shiyan’s avatar is a cat, smiling at me softly. Just looking at it makes me feel better.

“It can turn two people who have never met into an intimate relationship in the secular sense.”

“Being with someone across the screen can also be someone’s salvation.”

Tap a line of text on the screen and click Send:

——【I will accompany you.】

“How should I put it?” I looked at Shengsheng and smiled, “Is this the greatness of love?”

6

The sound of water in the bathroom stopped abruptly. I wrapped myself in a bath towel and came out. My roommate pointed at the phone on the table:

“Ran Ran, your boyfriend called a few times. I said you went to take a shower.”

“Thank you.” I said gently.

Her eyes fell on my arm and she exclaimed again:

“How did you fall? Why is it so serious? I just happen to have a bottle of medicine for injuries. Come here and I’ll massage it for you.”

The pain spread from the bruises and I bit my lip to stop myself from making a sound.

The pungent smell of medicine permeated the small space as I typed a reply to Song Shiyan.

——【I’m done washing.】

An emoticon quickly popped up over there, as if it was waiting for my reply.

——【Kiss.JPG】

——【Are you still playing games at night? 】

I thought about it and replied:

——【No more fighting.】

——【Today.】

——【What happened today? 】

My eyes flickered and I continued typing.

——【Today I saw someone cutting in line, so I pushed him and he said he would find someone to teach me a lesson.】

The other party’s input jumped a little bit, and finally it became the other party speaking…

Voice messages popped up one after another. I didn’t click on them, but just replied:

——【It’s okay, he didn’t come to see me.】

——【Is he right to cut in line?】Song Shiyan asked.

Voice boxes kept popping up on the other side, long and short, with red dots.

My eyes only fell on that one text reply, and I couldn’t help but laugh out loud.

“What’s wrong?” the roommate asked in confusion.

Two physiological tears came out of the corners of my eyes from laughing, and I raised my hand to wipe them away: “I saw a funny joke.”

7

There has never been a day without a break in our chatting.

Song Shiyan has sent me a lot of photos.

There is the gorgeous sunset in the evening, there are clusters of unknown flowers beside the grass, there is a pure blue sky…

In another photo, he was standing in his own garden, smiling at the camera.

The corners of the white shirt were lifted by the wind, the young man had an upright figure, a graceful figure, and a smile as bright as the moon in one’s arms.

He said, “My dear, this photo is taken specially for you.”

Maybe one day you’ll recognize me on the street.

I said, there is no such coincidence in the world.

Now I find out I was wrong.

There are more coincidental things in the world than this.

The half-lit and half-dark face under the night light was delicate and indifferent.

The beautiful facial features overlap with the person in the photo.

Strange yet familiar.

Song Shiyan once asked me what kind of person I like.

I asked him back, what do you look like?

He said, I am whatever you like.

I said, I like handsome and handsome young men.

This is what I imagined my inkstone to look like.

There was silence for a long time, and then I got a smiling face back.

8

The dialog box on the other side of the screen kept popping up.

I was stunned for half a minute before I sent him a message:

——【Inkstone from the Song Dynasty.】

——【Do you want to meet? 】

9

The next day in the cafeteria, I met Zhou Yueyue again.

She continued to take the shortcut. I stood in the middle of the other line and watched the boy who was cut in line swallow his breath without saying anything.

Zhou Yueyue turned around and chatted with her little sisters, the corners of her blood-red lips curled up, and she caught a glimpse of me in the team out of the corner of her eye.

She thought of something and the corners of her mouth curled up even more. She pulled her little sister away from the team and squeezed directly between me and the person in front.

He raised his elbow and almost pushed me onto the person behind me.

My steps staggered and I finally managed to steady myself.

The person in front of me turned around with a look of disdain, as if mocking me for overestimating my own capabilities yesterday.

I seldom see such an ugly face.

The corners of my lips were about to bleed from being bitten, but I tried my best to suppress my inner restlessness and lowered my eyes to hide all my emotions.

“Little, bitch.”

She pronounced the three words one by one, making them sound sarcastic and unpleasant.

But it fell into my ears clearly.

My sanity almost collapsed, and a fishy smell spread in my mouth, which I swallowed hard.

10

The WeChat interface of my baby Yanyan is still stuck on the kiss emoticon package he sent me yesterday.

——【Really?】

——【We are finally meeting! 】

——【I have been looking forward to seeing you for a long time. 】

——【It’s been almost three years.】

——【I’ll tell you when I decide on a date.】

–【good!】

——【I am so happy that I can finally meet you. 】

——【Maybe you won’t like me when we meet.】

——【How could this be!】

——【I like my darling no matter what he is like.】

——【kiss.jpg】

The conversation ended here. I finished my meal and sat in the cafeteria, watching this passage over and over again.

It was as if I wanted to see something from it, but I saw nothing.

11

Before I met Song Shiyan, I was not a sociable child.

The only person who can be called a good friend over the years is Shengsheng.

Being excluded, isolated, and looked at like a monster.

This is what my childhood was filled with.

But I clearly did nothing wrong.

During that period, the only one who accompanied me was Shengsheng.

I never learned to give in.

Zhou Yueyue thought she had won the fight.

Song Shiyan never came to see me again after that night.

The days seemed to have returned to normal.

Hidden beneath the calm sea surface is a restless whirlpool.

I can’t swallow this.

12

Monday evening elective.

The teacher is notoriously strict. Not only does he require a closed-book exam at the end of the semester, but he is also very stingy with his grades during the rest of the semester.

Students who choose this course are either unlucky or they really want to learn it.

As soon as the bell rang, a neatly dressed middle-aged woman took the roster and began to call the roll.

I sat in my seat, listening to the string of names, and lowered my head to send a message to Song Shiyan.

——【Oh my god, what time is it? 】

——【I can’t wait any longer. I really want to see you right away.】

I replied with an emoticon, and the teacher on the stage happened to call out my name.

“Lu Ran.”

I answered “yes” and raised my hand. The teacher’s eyes flashed across my face and he lowered his head to write it down on the form.

——【Don’t be in a hurry.】

The sound of calling the name continued, and I accurately caught the familiar name. When I turned my head, I saw a face that did not match the name.

The girl raised her hand and answered softly.

The teacher looked at her and nodded.

My heart suddenly started beating faster, as if in anticipation, but also as a warning.

“teacher!”

A sudden voice suddenly spread in the classroom, and the middle-aged woman’s eyes were as sharp as torches, shooting straight at me.

I stood up, a gentle smile on my face, and respectfully detonated a bolt of lightning out of the blue.

“She is not Zhou Yueyue.”

My eyes fell on the girl’s flustered face, but I remained calm:

“He should be a substitute teacher.”

The classroom was silent.

I know.

The grudge between Zhou Yueyue and I is getting bigger and bigger.

13

Maybe other teachers are too lazy to care whether there is a substitute teacher or not.

But I know that this teacher will pursue it.

Not only pursuit.

I estimate that it will be very difficult for Zhou Yueyue to pass this course.

When I returned to the dormitory at night, Song Shiyan called me. His voice was low and hoarse, with a doting tone that could drown one.

“How are you today, dear?”

When he called people “be good”, the two words sounded like they had rolled out of a sugar jar and fell into their ears, making them feel numb and tingling, enough to make people blush.

“I’m very happy today…”

I replied with a smile, with an undisguised excitement in my tone.

He seemed to be infected by me, and there was a hint of smile in his tone.

“What good thing happened?”

“…I’m very happy when I think that we will meet soon.”

“I’m happy too.”

We talked on the phone for two hours. Finally, I lay on the bed and was about to fall asleep when I heard him ask:

“How long will it take?”

“…almost there.” I whispered.

14

Zhou Yueyue’s revenge began two days after I exposed her for hiring someone to substitute for her class.

She wanted to lock me up in the teaching building, but when I saw her I ran away and she couldn’t catch me.

Every day when I came out of the classroom, I put on a mask and pulled down my hat, carefully looking around and avoiding her.

She failed to catch me and was angry for a few days.

But most of the time, life is not as we wish.

On the fifth day, she and I met by chance in the cafeteria.

I got the food I wanted, held the bowl happily, and tried to find an empty seat to sit down.

The cafeteria was bustling with people. I had sharp eyes and spotted a seat, then walked towards it happily.

There is a lot of noise in my ears.

There are still four or five steps to go.

The sticky and hot soup suddenly poured down from the top of my head, ran across my cheek, and sank into my collar.

There was quite a bit of it, splashing into my rice bowl.

I held the bowl and stood there in a daze.

The soup flowed down from the neck like a little snake and was very itchy.

My skin felt a little painful from the burning of the soup. I frowned but only stared at the rice that was contaminated by the soup.

What a pity.

I can’t eat it anymore.

The cafeteria was so quiet that you could hear a pin drop.

The person standing in front of me was all too familiar.

Zhou Yueyue and I became the focus again.

I looked so miserable, like a drowned rat. She had tortured me so much that my dignity was completely destroyed. Fortunately, the mask helped me retain some of my self-esteem.

The scorching gaze fell on me, making me feel uncomfortable all over.

Out of the corner of my eye I caught a glimpse of a familiar figure sitting upright in the crowd. My eyes flickered, but when I looked again, I saw clearly the person sitting opposite him.

Zhou Yueyue’s boyfriend.

They came to support Zhou Yueyue.

“Little bitch!”

“You played dirty tricks on me and hurt me behind my back! Who gave you the face? Huh?”

Zhou Yueyue was furious, her blood-red lips opening and closing like a poisonous snake’s apricots, and her saliva flew in front of me and almost landed in my eyes.

She continued to speak, and the words out of her mouth were unbearable to hear, worse than the rotten garbage in the sewer.

My dignity was trampled under her feet and crushed bit by bit.

And my boyfriend.

He just sat there.

Helped Zhou Yueyue and watched her violence coldly.

What a funny scene.

The corners of his lips beneath the mask raised a small arc.

Embarrassing and embarrassing.

After Zhou Yueyue finished scolding me, she wanted to tear off my mask and take off the last layer of my fig leaf.

The bowl in my hand fell to the ground and I covered my face to avoid her movement.

“You still dare to hide?”

“Bitch!”

“I’m going to tear your face apart today!”

no.

Only masks are not allowed.

I was like a trapped beast making its last struggle, desperately protecting the mask on my face.

Everyone was watching coldly. I knew they were afraid of Song Shiyan and Zhou Yueyue’s boyfriend who were sitting there.

Zhou Yueyue couldn’t reach me, and got angry and slapped me.

The palm strike was about to fall on my face, but the next second, someone grabbed her hand.

17

Of course not Song Shiyan.

I shrank my head and didn’t wait for the slap to land on my face. When I opened my eyes, a figure in a skirt stood in front of me.

Zhou Yueyue’s hand was tightly clenched by her. In a flash, a crisp sound was heard and the people around her gasped.

Zhou Yueyue’s face was slapped hard to the side.

Song Shiyan turned around and his eyes fell on my face with disdain, as if he was looking at trash. He was even unwilling to linger on it for too long, so he turned to the person in front of me.

Zhou Yueyue’s boyfriend wanted to get up, but was held down by him.

Zhou Yueyue covered her face with her hands, her eyes full of venom and resentment, but she did not take the next step.

The person in front of me turned around, a strand of long curly hair fell down, his lips were red, and his expression was cold.

I bit my lip and called her, “Shengsheng.”

He Sheng.

The goddess of mathematics.

We were friends in elementary school, we were brothers in distress.

18

Our school is divided into two campuses, north and south. She and I are in different campuses, and I don’t know why she came to my place today.

She held my hand all the way, almost dragged me back to the dormitory.

My roommate didn’t come back, and she pushed me into the bathroom without saying another word to me.

The soup was half dried and stuck to my body, making me feel uncomfortable. It was hot in the afternoon and it emitted a not-so-pleasant smell.

I turned on the shower.

When she came out, I saw her sitting on my chair, leaning against the back with a frown on her face, her wavy hair draped over her shoulders, matching her lip color, as bright as a rose.

“Your boyfriend sent you a message.”

She heard my voice and pointed to the phone on my desk.

“If I remember correctly, his name is Song Shiyan, right?”

Song Shiyan is also in the North Campus.

Two influential figures, perhaps in real life, they are more familiar with each other.

“Um.”

She pinched her brows with her fingertips, her expressionless face as cold as usual.

“Is he here today?”

“What’s going on? Isn’t he your boyfriend?”

I didn’t say anything, just lowered my eyes and stared at my toes.

Water droplets fell along the hair to the ground, leaving a stain.

Her eyes turned to me, calm and inquiring.

“It won’t be like that soon.” I suddenly said, looking up to meet her eyes.

He Sheng’s eyes were like knives, sharp and cold, just like usual.

She looked at me quietly for a while, and I let her look at me.

After a long time, she stood up and pinched my face with her fingers.

“If you have something to ask, come to me. Don’t keep it to yourself.”

18

He Sheng accompanied me to finish dinner before returning to the North Courtyard. I sent her to the gate of the South Courtyard. Instead of scanning the code to ride a bike, I walked slowly towards the dormitory.

There are not many people on the road.

The light from the street lamps shone on the path, and the shadows of mosquitoes were dancing. The wind passed through the woods on the roadside, making a rustling sound.

I feel so happy for a rare time.

I’ll make an appointment with Song Shiyan to play games when I get back to the dormitory.

I heard footsteps behind me, rustling and it seemed that they were following me not far away.

I quickened my pace, and the sounds behind me also became faster.

Who is following me?

I turned around suddenly, but there was no one behind me. The footsteps suddenly disappeared, and the figure on the road also disappeared.

Is it an illusion?

I felt a little uneasy.

He turned around and quickened his pace, taking out his cell phone to call his roommate.

Suddenly, I felt a pain in my hand, and with a bang, the phone fell to the ground.

I pulled my hands back in pain, but my arms were immediately clamped again, one on the left and one on the right, making it impossible for me to struggle free.

The beautiful pointed black high heels stepped on my phone and crushed it hard, and the sound of shattering glass exploded on the quiet path.

There were also tiny cracks in the heart.

That cell phone.

I bought it with my own money.

After three or four years of use, it’s no longer very sensitive. I originally used it just for its large memory.

Over the years, I have saved a lot of things. Sometimes my cell phone gets stuck for a long time and the battery breaks down.

It took two or three times to repair it.

But it carries so much, I don’t want to throw it away.

It records the memories of Song Shiyan and I for nearly three years.

The tears in his voice, the songs he sang for me in his hoarse, smoky voice, the deliberately gentle voice he used to coax me to sleep in the middle of the night, and the little traces of life he shared with me.

Sometimes just watching a little bit can make you happy for the whole day.

There was still redness and swelling on half of her face, and the concealer and foundation could only barely cover a part of it, making Zhou Yueyue look a little funny.

I just glanced at her, then lowered my eyes and stared at the phone that she was stepping on.

“Little bitch.”

She walked towards me, and the heels of her high heels made a crisp and pleasant clicking sound on the ground.

“You are alone. Now that He Sheng is not by your side, who will protect you?”

Her voice was as sharp as nails scratching on a blackboard, hurting my eardrums.

All the unpleasant words came into my ears again bit by bit.

Bitch.

Bitch.

I heard her greet my parents, using every possible swear word.

“Little bitch, today I will let you know what happens if you mess with the wrong person.”

Zhou Yueyue waved her hand, and the two people beside her dragged me into the woods.

They were very strong and their shoes made a hissing sound as they rubbed against the ground.

I stubbornly refused to move and stared at the phone that fell not far away.

There is a spider-web-like crack on the glass shell on the back.

That was caused by Zhou Yueyue’s stiletto heels.

The two people behind me used force and grabbed my wrist so hard that it hurt a little. Seeing that I didn’t move, they simply dragged me.

My heel touched the grass and dragged against the gravel, and the sharp stone cut one of my ankles.

It hurts a little.

They threw me to the ground.

I straightened my back and looked at Zhou Yueyue who was holding her arms.

The moonlight is very bright tonight.

Through the layers of leaves, I can still see the hideous and distorted face of the person in front of me.

The two sides of my face are asymmetrical, which makes me feel uncomfortable.

She raised her foot, quickly and fiercely, trying to step on me. Her stilettos shook and I quickly turned sideways.

Zhou Yueyue was so angry that she said, “Pull her up.”

The people next to me immediately lifted me up and treated me like an animal to be slaughtered.

Zhou Yueyue forced a smile, her lips were blood red, and there was even some red paint on the edges of her lips.

Under the moonlight, it looked like a cursed doll painted with uneven oil paint.

“Little bitch.”

She raised her leg, pointed her sharp heel at my lower abdomen, grinned, and kicked me hard.

With both my hands clamped, I could only watch helplessly as the legs carrying the wind came towards me.

It will be painful.

I think.

19

When I returned to the dormitory, the door was almost closing.

The dormitory manager downstairs was holding the lock, and my clothes were covered in mud and grass, and were dirty.

When I went in, I whispered sorry to her.

The aunt was very kind and just said it was okay.

When I returned to the dormitory.

My roommate was watching a TV show with some potato chips and pressed pause when he heard the door open.

“Ran Ran, why are you so late… why are your clothes dirty again?”

“I fell again.” I answered her in a low voice without taking off my mask.

“Are you okay?”

She opened her eyes wide: “Why do you keep falling down recently? Is there any pain this time? I’ll apply some more medicine on you.”

I shook my head.

His arms hung at his sides, still somewhat limp.

I slowly walked to the closet, got my clothes, and went into the bathroom again.

The warm water falling over my head made me feel alive.

The bruises on the arms and thighs had not yet disappeared, which showed how cruelly the people Song Shiyan brought with him that day had attacked.

There was still a slight pain when I pressed it, so I twisted it hard, and physiological tears came out and were washed away by the water.

Fell into the sewer together.

20

When I came out of the bathroom, Song Shiyan called.

I pressed the connect button and a slightly hoarse voice came through. He seemed to have endless things to talk to me.

I put my phone aside and took the basin to wash clothes.

The mud on the pants spread in the clear water, polluting the entire basin of water.

Song Shiyan told me that he saw a kitten on the roadside today and fed it some ham sausage.

The kitten is very cute.

I rubbed the clothes vigorously.

“My dear, do you like cats or dogs?”

I was stunned for a moment, and then I said, “Dog.”

“Okay, then we’ll get a dog from now on.”

The strength in his hands loosened, and the basin fell to the ground, creating a crack. Water rushed out of the crack and flowed all over the ground.

The noise was heard by Song Shiyan on the other end, who asked me anxiously what was wrong.

“……fine.”

He breathed a sigh of relief.

Gentle, kind, caring and affectionate.

Just like the character he showed me before.

They are so kind to stray animals.

The person on the other end of the phone was still saying something, but I didn’t hear a word he said.

I swallowed the words I didn’t say.

Inkstone from the Song Dynasty.

Where will our future come from?

twenty one

Song Shiyan found me faster than I expected.

On the third night after being blocked by Zhou Yueyue, I came out of the library.

Someone is following me.

As we walked to a place where there were fewer people, the sound of footsteps gradually got closer.

I pulled my hat down, quickened my pace inconspicuously, and when I turned the corner, someone grabbed my collar from behind and pulled me backwards.

The force on my feet was unstable, and I was pulled to the ground on the grass beside me. Fortunately, the soil was soft and it didn’t hurt much.

Song Shiyan let go of my hand and looked down at me condescendingly.

The street lamp above his head cast a dim light, but it was blocked behind him, with his entire face submerged in shadow.

I touched the mask with some trepidation.

The look he cast upon me was devoid of any warmth, and even contained a hint of impatience.

“Zhou Yueyue asked you to apologize.”

Song Shiyan looked down at me, his words devoid of any emotion.

I sat on the ground in embarrassment, staring at him blankly, as if I didn’t understand what he said.

Song Shiyan’s facial features are very superior.

I was amazed the first time I saw his photo. He looked like an angel lost in the world.

A very cliché metaphor.

But I have never met anyone who fits this metaphor better than him.

He sent me that photo.

The boy looked towards the camera, his eyes full of tenderness.

But there was still a lingering chill on his body.

Gentleness is the mask he gave me.

The one in front of me now is the real Song Shiyan.

“Why don’t you just let her vent her anger? Why do you still want to provoke her?”

The hostility between Song Shiyan’s eyebrows was almost overflowing. It was the first time I saw him frown and speak to me in an impatient tone.

A little bug that overestimates its own capabilities.

I thought blankly.

This is how I am in his eyes now.

“It’s not my fault.”

The voice beneath the mask was so hoarse that even I was shocked.

I looked straight into Song Shiyan’s eyes, straightened my back, and tried to save the last bit of my dignity.

“It was Zhou Yueyue first…”

“It’s none of my business.” Song Shiyan suddenly interrupted me, his expression indifferent, “I don’t care whose fault it is.”

“You embarrassed her.”

“She’s unhappy.”

All the strength in my body was drained away at once, and the words I wanted to say died in my throat.

I stared at him intently.

“She wants you to apologize to her in front of the whole school this weekend.”

Song Shiyan glanced at his phone and frowned even more.

“Just agree to it. I don’t really want to fight with a girl.”

“Apologize?” I repeated his words, somewhat amused.

“How do you apologize?”

“Eight o’clock on Sunday, west playground of the school.” Song Shiyan paused.

“Kneel down and apologize.”

twenty two

Someone passed by at the corner.

The two men looked at me with a bit of pity, but the moment they saw Song Shiyan clearly, their expressions changed and they quickly left.

Silence spread through the night.

I lowered my eyes.

The sound of breathing is particularly clear in the quiet night.

“quick……”

“……good.”

Song Shiyan paused, “Don’t play tricks.”

“Don’t let something that can be solved by apologizing turn into something bigger…”

“I know.” I interrupted him. “Sunday evening at 8 o’clock, West Playground.”

“I will go.”

Will definitely go.

twenty three

The dormitory is closed.

When I took out my phone again, I saw several missed calls from my roommate.

I sent her a message telling her not to worry, as I had something to do today and would not be returning to the dormitory that night.

She immediately replied with an emoticon.

Song Shiyan’s new WeChat message popped up immediately after I exited my roommate’s chat interface.

——【My goodness, why didn’t you reply to me just now?】

Unspeakable emotions filled my heart, and I typed the following words word by word:

——【Inkstone from the Song Dynasty.】

——【Let’s meet.】

The WeChat call from the other end popped up immediately.

I clicked the answer button, and Song Shiyan’s voice was filled with uncontrollable joy.

“Oh my goodness, really? We’re going to meet?”

I was still standing there, but there was no one on the road.

The moon was blocked by clouds, the light of the street lamps was dim, and the night was silent.

I heard his breathing against my ear.

I looked at the light and smiled, “Yes.”

The tone was so sweet that it made me feel a little nauseous.

“Ayan.”

“I really want to see you.”

twenty four

I had just finished the call when He Sheng opened the door for me.

Her eyes focused on the stain on my pants, silently signaling with her eyes that I should give her an explanation.

“It was just a small accident,” I said calmly.

“Accident?” she repeated, speaking quickly and without emotion. “What about this?”

The phone screen is pressed against my face.

There is a screenshot hanging on it:

–wall

——Eight o’clock on Sunday evening, West Playground.

——Please everyone watch a good show.

The three words “Zhou Yueyue” were clearly written on it.

A picture is also attached.

This should have been taken by Song Shiyan tonight.

I was wearing a mask and my hat was pulled low, sitting on the ground, looking disheveled.

The campus wall sent a separate message to Zhou Yueyue.

The heat is high.

There are many comments below, but no one dares to speak out.

Just hinting at something vaguely.

“Lu Ran.”

He Sheng’s face was as cold as ever.

“Tell me what this is.”

“This is……”

I took off my mask and smiled at her.

“A fox who takes advantage of the tiger’s might.”

25

The early morning sunlight shines through the window, and my biological clock prompts me to wake up early.

He Sheng is still sleeping.

I rubbed my eyes and saw the message Song Shiyan sent five minutes ago.

——【Hey dear, I’m up now. I’m so looking forward to it. 】

——【kiss.jpg】

——【I’m finally going to see my baby.】

I pressed the screen-off button, put on my slippers, and quietly left the room.

The coat I wore yesterday was hanging on the balcony, fluttering in the wind.

I took the hanger to get it.

“You’re going to wear this on a date?”

I turned around and saw that He Sheng had already gotten up, leaning against the balcony door with his hands folded, and glaring at me coldly.

“No.” I took the clothes and folded them.

Summer coats are very thin and can be folded into my shoulder bag without looking bulky.

“This is a surprise.”

The morning breeze blows on my face, bringing with it a lingering coolness.

He Sheng’s nightgown was lifted up a little by the wind. She had always had this expressionless face since she was a child.

She yawned and went back to her room:

“Call me if you need anything.”

26

The time on the phone changed from 9:59 to 10:00.

The wind chimes at the entrance of the milk tea shop jingled, and I took out a mirror from my bag and double-checked that my makeup was in place.

At the moment of the action, someone knocked on the glass window next to him.

I put down the mirror and looked back, only to see the young man standing in the sun, a corner of his shirt blown up by the wind, with a warm smile in his eyes.

Be good.

Song Shiyan had a smile on his face. I couldn’t hear his voice clearly, but I could still tell from his lip shape that he was as doting as usual.

I picked up my bag and walked out of the milk tea shop quickly.

The morning sun was shining brightly, illuminating his delicate features, and the sound of cars could be heard from the roadside.

Song Shiyan took out a bouquet of flowers from behind his back as if by magic.

But the flowers in his arms were not half as good as his.

The moment I stood in front of him, the person in the picture seemed to come alive.

A bright and handsome young man.

mine–

Inkstone.

Song Shiyan reached out and tucked the hair on my cheek behind my ear. His movements were so intimate as if we had always been close.

I could see the deep love in his eyes.

I could hear the joy in his voice:

“We finally meet, dear.”

yes.

We finally met.

Inkstone from the Song Dynasty.

27

Song Shiyan likes Lu Ran very much.

How much do you like it?

I liked him so much that he asked me to meet him again and again, but he remained silent again because of my rejection.

He liked it so much that he once asked me whether I preferred a Chinese or a Western wedding dress.

I like it so much that even though she is allergic to seafood, she still peeled shrimps for me with a smile on her face.

As the lights come on, the roadside stalls are filled with the atmosphere of fireworks.

I refused Song Shiyan’s request to take me to an expensive restaurant and pulled him to sit down at a roadside stall.

A young man like Song Shiyan is not used to the environment of a roadside stall. I could see with my own eyes how stiff he was when he sat down.

But the moment he met my eyes, his expression softened again.

I took the menu and ordered with the boss. Song Shiyan listened to me and said softly:

“Ran Ran, this kind of roadside stall is delicious, but it’s not healthy. Let’s not come here again in the future, okay?”

I nodded.

He smiled and rubbed my head, his eyes never leaving me for a moment.

Song Shiyan rushed to pay for the day.

From the very beginning, he stood beside me cautiously and touched my hand intentionally or unintentionally.

When I grabbed his hand, my ears turned pink.

Then he held my fingers tightly all the way, as if he was afraid that I would run away.

His heart and eyes are full of me.

Steaming hot barbecue and shrimps and crabs were served on the table.

Every shrimp is soaked in soup, with bright colors, making people salivate.

Just as I was about to take it, Song Shiyan stopped me.

He took one from the bowl, peeled it clumsily, and put it in my bowl.

I was stunned for a moment.

“I’ll peel it and you can eat it.”

I know Song Shiyan is a germaphobe and I also know that he is allergic to these things.

I deliberately told my boss not to use gloves.

Orange oil dripped from his hands onto the table, and his slender, white hands, like works of art, were stained with oil.

Song Shiyan lowered his eyes and looked at me, his eyes full of tenderness.

A little me is reflected in his eyes.

“Ran Ran, just be responsible for eating.”

“I will take care of you for the rest of my life.”

The person in his eyes smiled but did not answer.

28

The night deepens.

Song Shiyan went to the boss to settle the bill.

I walked outside and stopped a car on the side of the road.

I pulled open the back seat.

The wind was strong in the evening and gave me a chill.

Song Shiyan happened to see me. He quickly paid the bill and walked towards me.

I took my coat out of my bag and put it on.

The wind was strong in the evening, and a strand of Song Shiyan’s hair was lifted up, and the light from the moon and the street lamp fell on him.

He ran towards me, taking with him the bouquet of flowers I had left on the chair.

Just four or five steps away.

I suddenly said, “Don’t come over here.”

Song Shiyan’s steps suddenly stopped, his face full of confusion, but he was stunned the moment he met my eyes.

“slowly……?”

He called my name carefully.

The wind is howling.

The time on the phone jumped to ten o’clock.

It was as if Cinderella’s clock was struck and all the beautiful dreams disappeared in an instant.

But I’m not Cinderella.

Song Shiyan is not a prince either.

Twelve hours.

I met Song Shiyan three years ago.

At that time, he was withdrawn, world-weary, indifferent, and lacking in love. Every conversation he had was filled with his boredom with his current state of life.

I pretended not to know and stayed with him, little by little, until he opened his heart.

By now, he has grown into a handsome gentleman.

Three years of phone calls, three years of companionship, three years of time passing like flowing water.

Now it comes to an end.

Song Shiyan’s beautiful dream ended here.

He included me in his plan.

He always thought we had a future.

He described a lot of future to me.

It’s a pity that we have no future.

The moonlight is cold and thin.

I pulled the hood of my coat down, opened my arms and smiled at him.

“Song Shiyan——”

“Does it look familiar?”

I watched his face turn paler and paler, and his expression looked as ugly as a piece of fine porcelain broken.

Song Shiyan’s lips moved, but only a few meaningless sounds came out of his throat.

At a loss.

Fearfully.

But I don’t know what to say.

He raised his foot and tried to move closer to me.

“Don’t come over here.” I took a step back and put my hand on the car door.

He was pierced by my eyes, his face turned paler, he hesitated, but finally stopped.

“…Ran…”

“Song Shiyan.”

I interrupted him and said calmly, “See you tomorrow.”

“West playground at eight o’clock.”

“See you there.”

This sentence was like the final blow. Song Shiyan’s face turned pale and he almost couldn’t stand. He seemed to have lost his soul.

He walked towards me and wanted to hold my hand: “Ran Ran, I don’t–“

I quickly got into a taxi.

The driver started the car.

The moment we passed each other, I smiled at him outside the car window.

“Song Shiyan.”

“Don’t embarrass her.”

“I will definitely be there.”

29

When He Sheng picked me up downstairs, I was blocking the fourth number Song Shiyan had changed.

She came back from exercising downstairs in the evening, with a thin layer of sweat on her face.

“how’s it going?”

“We broke up.”

He Sheng hummed and said nothing more.

I followed her into the room obediently.

“Failed.”

He Sheng paused while pouring water for me, then handed me the cup as if nothing had happened.

I took it and looked up at her. She didn’t avoid my gaze. “I guessed it.”

Her expression and look were the same as three years ago when she sneered and asked me why I had so much free time.

30

Song Shiyan kept changing his cell phones to call and text me.

Before going to bed, I blocked the last number he sent me and just sent him a text message.

【See you at 8 o’clock. 】

Time flies.

It’s like three years passed in a flash.

He Sheng’s cell phone kept ringing while they were eating. She took a look and hung up the call.

I put down my chopsticks and looked at her with some confusion.

“It’s Song Shiyan calling.”

She said, expressionless, “He wants to talk to you.”

“No.”

The clock on the wall moved, pointing to six o’clock. I stood up and smiled, “Let’s talk about it in person.”

31

When I arrived at the playground, it was almost dark and there were a lot of people on the track, far more than usual.

They were walking in groups of three or four, stretching their necks as if looking for something.

The lights under the rostrum were bright, as if it was a stage specially prepared for us.

I pulled my hat down and walked straight over there.

People passing by have sharp eyes. Some of them noticed that the clothes I was wearing looked familiar, looked at them for a few more times, and then whispered to their companions.

Searchlight-like looks kept coming at me, along with endless gossip.

They surround me like flies, so annoying.

“Hey, weren’t you so arrogant that day? But today you came to apologize to Sister Yueyue.”

A voice as sharp as a crow suddenly sounded, and my identity was exposed in public.

Those gazes became more unscrupulous, leaving a space around me.

I looked at the person who spoke.

She was one of the sisters Zhou Yueyue brought that night.

She crossed her arms, her face full of the taunts and ridicule of a winner facing a loser.

I looked away and said nothing.

She became more aggressive and stretched out her hand to push me again.

I didn’t dodge, but halfway through, a hand suddenly stretched out, blocked in front of me, and opened her hand.

The girl felt pain, her eyes widened and she was about to swear, but she kept silent.

I looked through the two of them and saw Zhou Yueyue walking out of the crowd.

There was still some swelling on her cheeks, but they were finally symmetrical.

Step by step, only a few meters, she walked slowly and with difficulty.

The surroundings suddenly became quiet, the protagonist came on stage, and the show finally began.

“Sister Yueyue!”

When the younger sisters saw her appear, they quickly stood behind her, as if they had someone to rely on, and became proud again.

Zhou Yueyue looked at me, but she no longer had the arrogance she once had.

She didn’t dare to look at Song Shiyan who was standing in front of me. She stared at me intently, but the resentment in her eyes never diminished.

She straightened her back and clenched her hands at her sides.

It’s quite embarrassing.

You may not agree.

She wanted to regain her dignity from me.

She wanted to use me to prove that her position could not be challenged.

Unfortunately, the wishful thinking failed.

I can imagine that she wants to tear me into pieces, but now, she has no choice but to swallow her anger.

There were more and more people around us, and the whispers became louder when they saw that we were not moving.

I couldn’t wait any longer, so I spoke first: “Zhou…”

Before I finished speaking, I heard Song Shiyan, who was standing in front of me, speak indifferently: “Zhou Yueyue.”

Zhou Yueyue’s body trembled almost imperceptibly, and when she looked into my eyes again, the resentment in her eyes intensified.

But still under the intimidation of Song Shiyan, he slowly and stiffly said: “I’m…I’m sorry.”

Zhou Yueyue’s voice was quite loud, and it successfully made the sisters behind her gasp for air. The stupid teammates shouted anxiously:

“Sister Yueyue! What are you talking about? Why are you apologizing to her? She should be the one apologizing to you!”

As soon as these words were shouted out, everyone on the field fell silent.

Zhou Yueyue’s expression became even uglier, and she whispered, “Stop talking.”

Unfortunately her sister is a fool:

“Why, Sister Yueyue? She’s the one who should apologize! Didn’t you say you wanted her to kneel down and apologize to you today?”

One sentence can cause a thousand waves.

“yes.”

I walked around Song Shiyan who was standing in front of me and stood in front of her:

“I came to apologize to you.”

“I shouldn’t have pushed you when you cut in line.”

“so……”

I met her gaze and said, “I’m here to kneel down and apologize to you.”

I emphasized the word “kneel” very much.

The person behind me tried to hold my hand, but I pushed him away.

“Ran…”

I ignored him and just looked at Zhou Yueyue with a smile.

The moon is cool like water.

After a long time, the person behind me spoke, and his tone was as indifferent as that night. He told me that he didn’t care whose fault it was.

“Zhou Yueyue.”

The implication in the tone was too obvious.

Zhou Yueyue’s face turned pale.

His body was trembling, he pursed his lips, and slowly, he bent his knees.

All eyes were focused on her alone.

It weighed thousands of pounds and bent her spine little by little.

In just one week, our roles were reversed and she became the one whose dignity was lost.

The play reached its climax, but Zhou Yueyue was like an actor with poor acting skills, reluctant to finish her part.

But it doesn’t matter. This doesn’t prevent her from becoming a laughing stock from now on, and no one will pay for her series of outrageous behaviors.

Her support no longer existed.

I heard whispers in the crowd. Flash lights recorded Zhou Yueyue’s ugly appearance. Cold eyes and ridicule fell on Zhou Yueyue.

My mood suddenly became cheerful.

I leaned over and whispered into Zhou Yueyue’s ear, and chuckled:

“I did.”

“Without Song Shiyan, you are nothing.”

32

Summer insects were chirping noisily in the trees, and the only sounds in the forest were the chirping of cicadas and their breathing.

The three of them huddled together looked particularly funny.

Zhou Yueyue looked terrified, but still shouted angrily: “I won’t let you go!”

I ignored her anger and just lowered my eyes and smiled at her.

The moment the fingers clamped her chin, her body shrank back uncontrollably.

She was forced to look me in the eye.

“Let me go! Damn it…”

Zhou Yueyue’s unfinished words disappeared in the sound of a crisp slap.

Now it’s symmetrical.

The companion behind him gasped and his eyes widened.

Zhou Yueyue’s face turned to one side again, as if she had been stunned and had not come back to her senses for a long time.

“You hit me! You little bitch! You actually…”

I stepped on her leg: “You won’t let me go?”

“You can’t do that.”

“Without Song Shiyan, you are nothing.”

“Bitch! Just wait! Tomorrow I will…”

“I’ll wait.”

I’m waiting for Song Shiyan, my boyfriend, to confront me.

33

When I returned to the dormitory, Song Shiyan followed me all the way without saying a word.

The sound of breathing follows you everywhere.

He wanted to say something several times but finally fell silent.

When we reached the downstairs of the dormitory, I suddenly turned around and my eyes met his.

His eyes were a little vague, but the moment they met, it was as if he had grasped a life-saving straw.

“…Ranran, I’m sorry.”

“I have no idea……”

“Song Shiyan.” I interrupted him.

He stretched out his hand, and under the dim light of the street lamp, the bruises on his arm were still obvious.

“Did you see clearly?”

I met his gaze and called him softly as before:

“Ayan.”

“Did you see clearly?”

“It’s been more than 20 days, and it’s still there.”

Song Shiyan took a step back, his body unstable, his eyes fell on the bruise, staring at it intently as if he had lost his soul.

That’s how people are.

Only when what they do affects themselves can they feel the pain.

Everything Song Shiyan had ever done to me.

By now, it has become a sharp weapon, cutting into his heart.

Make him suffer from excruciating pain.

34

Song Shiyan disappeared from my side for three or four days and then reappeared.

After school at noon, I went to the cafeteria to queue up for food.

I arrived early and saw that the queue at the popular window was half the number of people than usual. I was in a good mood and stood in line waiting.

The number of people in front gradually decreased.

A familiar figure appeared on one side of the team.

Zhou Yueyue and her little sisters.

She spotted a spot and wanted to use the same trick as before, but she failed to succeed as before.

Someone pushed him and he staggered.

She was so angry that she was about to curse someone, but someone cursed her first:

“What are you pretending for? How dare you cut in line? Are you shameless?”

What everyone is afraid of is her gangster boyfriend and Song Shiyan who supports them behind the scenes.

Song Shiyan’s family is rich and powerful.

So when Song Shiyan didn’t stand on her side, Zhou Yueyue was nothing.

I looked away and stopped paying attention to her farce. I happily got my meal and prepared to find a seat to sit down.

There were more and more people in the cafeteria. I stood in the crowd, looking around, and finally found a good seat. I walked over with my bowl in hand.

It was exactly the same scene as that day.

Still only four or five steps away.

When passing by a dining table, someone suddenly grabbed my hand and the bowl was a little unstable, but fortunately the rice did not spill.

I looked at the culprit who held me, and it turned out to be Song Shiyan who had disappeared for a few days.

He seemed to have not had a good sleep, with dark circles under his eyes and a listless look, but his appearance was outstanding, with a kind of decadent beauty.

I looked at him but didn’t say anything.

“slowly.”

Song Shiyan called my name cautiously.

“sorry……”

The look was obviously flattering.

“If I can’t make up for what I did to you, you can give it back to me, okay?”

“return?”

I wanted to laugh, “Why…”

The hand holding my wrist suddenly exerted force, forcing the bowl of rice in my hand to fall over.

The dark sauce and food all fell on Song Shiyan as the bowl tilted.

The food stuck to his hair and dark soup streaked across his face, contrasting sharply with his cold white skin.

It fell on his white short-sleeved shirt, staining a large area.

The girl next to me screamed, and we instantly became the focus of the crowd again.

Song Shiyan let go.

When they looked over, they could only see me splashing Song Shiyan with the bowl.

Someone gasped.

Song Shiyan didn’t care about these gazes.

His eyes were always on my face.

The voice was hoarse and the posture was almost lowered to the dust.

“slowly.”

“Please.”

“Give it all back to me, don’t…”

The arrogant Young Master Song asked for help for the first time. The corners of his eyes were red and full of begging.

He once said that he had offended Zhou Yueyue and she was unhappy.

Later, he lost Zhou Yueyue’s face and trampled her into the dust.

Now, he has lost his own face.

He wanted to ask for my forgiveness.

But Song Shiyan, things in this world cannot be settled by just repaying each other.

The cafeteria was noisy, and the sound of gossip and discussion surrounded me again.

Song Shiyan was waiting for my answer.

He was doomed to be disappointed.

“Song Shiyan.”

The bowl in my hand is empty.

I looked down and whispered:

“This is the dish I’ve wanted to eat for a long time.”

He was stunned for a moment, and his face fell little by little.

35

As Song Shiyan said, what goes around comes around.

When his text message came, I was watching a TV series with He Sheng. He sent the message using a new card that I had changed countless times.

The agreed location was where he brought people to block me for the first time.

He Sheng looked at me, and I put my phone down and threw it aside again.

“Aren’t you going?”

“I’m not going.”

I leaned back on the sofa, “It’s nothing more than watching him get beaten up. It’s dark now, and I’m too lazy to go over.”

He Sheng said nothing. I supported myself with my hands and smiled at her lazily.

“I used to think that being in love with Song Shiyan was fun.”

“Then he showed up, and I suddenly realized that something even more interesting had happened.”

Watching a person have an emotional breakdown.

Watch him get so overwhelmed with guilt.

Seeing him regretting his decision and feeling miserable.

I was isolated as a child.

They said my father was a murderer, hated me, and even threw stones at me.

Obviously I didn’t do anything.

He Sheng is the illegitimate daughter of a wealthy family. Her mother was deceived into becoming a mistress without her knowledge.

Children’s disgust is more intuitive than adults’.

That is ruthless evil.

My murderer father killed my mother.

The love he always professed became the shackles he placed on his lover, and eventually became the weapon that took her life.

Three years ago, He Sheng asked me why I was so free.

I lowered my eyes and sighed, perhaps this is the greatness of love.

But what is love?

It’s a hideous possessiveness.

Or is it the duplicity of human nature?

I have no idea.

36

Song Shiyan’s video was sent to my email the next day.

In the ten-minute long video, he was surrounded alone, not resisting at all, and silently enduring the violence from several people.

Some people couldn’t bear to strike back, so their punches were light, and he yelled at them again.

He was like a madman, masochistically asking people to hit him harder and harder.

I watched the video with a blank expression.

Along with this video came his request for a meeting.

Ignoring the thousand-word confession, I sent him an email asking where he was.

He replied immediately as usual, and asked me cautiously where I was convenient so he could come and see me.

I gave the address of a cafe and made an appointment for the afternoon.

The inkstone appeared as scheduled during the Song Dynasty.

He looked more haggard and thinner, his white short-sleeved shirt was a little loose, and there were obvious bruises at the corners of his mouth.

The moment he saw me, his eyes lit up and then quickly dimmed.

“Ranran.” Song Shiyan called me tentatively and cautiously.

Looking pitiful, like an abandoned stray dog.

I responded.

He immediately felt happy, and the arrogance in his eyes no longer existed.

“I’m sorry, Ranran.”

“Forgive me, okay?”

“I didn’t know it was you…”

“Don’t you know it’s me?”

I put down the cup in my hand and interrupted him.

Song Shiyan apologized many times.

I changed phone cards one after another and wrote long and short confession letters.

He was afraid, afraid of losing me.

“Song Shiyan.”

“You never realize how wrong you are.”

He apologized to me because I was Lu Ran.

She is the person he holds at the top of his heart.

What if I’m not.

If I were nothing.

I’m just an ordinary student.

I just suffered such an unexpected disaster for no reason.

Will he feel that he was wrong?

He won’t.

What he did to me doesn’t matter to me at all.

I never cared about the embarrassment and pain.

When he was labeled as the bully, from the first time we met.

I knew there was no chance for us anymore.

People who lack emotions never understand how to love and be loved. What drives me to complete this play is just my interest.

People’s mood swings are strange.

When I first accompanied Song Shiyan, he was no different from anyone else to me.

Later, he encountered an unexpected change and called me to cry. At the moment when his emotions collapsed, I suddenly sensed a strange emotion.

I have never had such vivid emotions.

Just as I can feel that Song Shiyan loves me very much, he can also feel that my feelings for him are not actually deep.

I want to find the answer from him.

The answer about love.

But in the end it still failed.

For me, there is no moral bottom line that can be crossed.

Actually, just a little bit.

I stood up, my eyes fell on the bruises at the corners of his mouth, and smiled:

“Song Shiyan, do you know?”

“Just a little bit, actually.”

“I’m almost falling in love with you.”

“pity……”

“Bullyers never deserve it.”

Song Shiyan’s face turned pale in an instant and his body was shaking.

37

Song Shiyan disappeared from my side again.

The one who mentioned him again was He Sheng.

The background sound of the video on the phone was noisy, and He Sheng handed the phone to me.

“Song Shiyan came to see me before.”

“Um.”

“He asked me how I could get you to forgive him.”

“What did you say?”

“I said,” He Sheng took the cigarette, but I stopped her. She put it down obediently, “You won’t forgive a bully.”

I smiled noncommittally.

He Sheng signaled me with his eyes to watch the video.

“I don’t know if he understood me.”

I clicked play again.

The harsh background sound of the video came again, and the picture was not clear.

There are many people in the video, the most prominent of which is a thin figure with his head down, apologizing humbly.

The camera did not capture the person opposite him.

But I can hear the angry voice of the person outside the frame.

“Apologizing now? Will it help? ……”

“…”

The voice expressed his grievances and sufferings.

Finally, he roared in anger, “You still want forgiveness? Kneel down and apologize to me and I will forgive you!”

Song Shiyan’s body froze, and the two words in the sentence pierced his heart accurately.

The atmosphere was silent for a moment.

The next second, he bent his knees steadily towards the man.

…

The video stops abruptly.

“I heard that he went to the person he bullied in the past to ask for forgiveness. This video went viral on the school forum.”

I finished watching it with a smile.

He handed the phone back to He Sheng.

“Do you know why Song Shiyan likes me so much?”

He Sheng looked at me without saying anything.

“His original family was too cold and his parents didn’t love him.”

Behind the glamour and beauty lies a cold and icy barrier.

His childhood was filled with an empty home and parents who never talked much to him.

“He has no one to talk to. All the words are stuck in his throat and he can’t say them. Only his grandfather is the only one who loves him.”

The pain in your heart when you lose someone like this is immeasurable.

Later, when I met my grandfather, I was with him during his death.

He opened up the softest part of his heart to me.

After losing the person he loved most, I became his lifeline.

I was nice to him and I always coaxed him in a gentle tone no matter what he said.

He loves me.

“He protects people like Zhou Yueyue because he doesn’t care. Apart from the people he cares about, he doesn’t care about anyone else’s life or death, including Zhou Yueyue.”

Cold and heartless.

But this is the real him.

The damage done by one’s original family is difficult to heal.

He eventually grew up to be this kind of person.

37

It’s not like Song Shiyan hasn’t looked for me.

The worst incident ever.

It was raining at night and he was drunk. No one could stop him, so he called me.

The voice on the other end of the phone was hoarse, and even had a hint of crying.

He called my name over and over again.

“slowly……”

“slowly……”

“I really know I was wrong. I apologized to each of them and begged them to forgive me…”

“Please…”

“Please, Ranran, don’t leave me…”

As he was reciting, he fell silent again.

Someone in the background was advising him to drink less.

Someone snatched his phone and said angrily:

“Sister, I beg you, please say something nice to Brother Yan, or he will really die if he drinks any more.”

I was silent for a while.

“Give him the phone.”

“slowly……”

Song Shiyan’s tone was in disarray, “Ran Ran, please, don’t leave me… I was wrong, I know I was wrong.”

“Don’t leave me, Ranran…”

His grandfather died two years ago.

Song Shiyan called me in the middle of the night, his voice was also hoarse, and he asked me, “Will you accompany me, Ranran?”

I softened my voice and comforted and coaxed him.

I said, I will accompany you.

It’s still him now.

She begged me not to leave in a crying voice.

Please don’t leave him.

The night is as dark as ink.

I looked out the window and said calmly:

“Song Shiyan.”

“Don’t be a bitch.”

Later, He Sheng said that he stood downstairs all night that day. It rained in the middle of the night and he was sent to the hospital early in the morning.

I forget things as soon as I hear them, just like a joke.

38

I have known for a long time that Song Shiyan is arrogant and proud. He looks exquisite on the outside but is empty on the inside.

None of this matters.

I had hoped that he could be my salvation.

But he is not.

He is not the moon.

The misfortune of his original family is not a reason for him to become an accomplice of the bully.

Some things are just unforgivable.